~~Life is as it should be~~

It's been a while...... How's life? As usual.... hectic, tiring...  plus the pressure is even more now. But somehow,  I should be thankful for all the life have brought me through :).

Good news, Imtiyaaz is gonna be a big brother soon, end of this year, Insya Allah. Bad news. I've gone through a quite bad morning sickness + nausea. And I'm getting used to it now, it slowly faded away as I reached 2nd trimester of my pregnancy. Cant really wait to hold a small little baby again (^-^)

Work... hurmmm work, the 'pressure is even more now' is referred to work actually. Thought of finding other job, cause sometimes I just couldn't stand it anymore, I just couldn't bear the workload, the responsibilities and the fact that I have to handle A-Z all by myself. Maybe I need to take a month leave and rest at home without thinking about work, owh how I wish I could do that.

Hmmm, ok , keyboard off for now. Got something else to do. Ta!!

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When you lose your way, to Allah you should turn.

~~Nangis sendiri~~

Benar apa yang selalu orang cakap, salah yang sedikit itu selalunya lebih di ingati dari kebaikan yang banyak,

Atau, memang tidak ada hatta sekelumit kebaikan kah yang aku buat selama ini?

Negatif menguasai positif,

Aku bukan robot, yang langsung tak ada hati dan perasaan,

Aku bukan gadget pintar, yang boleh di padam segala data buruk yang ada di dalamnya,

Aku hanya manusia, manusia biasa yang banyak kekurangan,

Yang tak mampu buat semua perkara,

Yang hanya tumpang bernafas di bumi Allah SWT ini, hanya untuk seketika,

Terpaksa telan walaupun pahit.......

Terpaksa memendam rasa walaupun sebu di dada.........

Menangis sendiri, mengeluh sendiri, Ya Allah, tabahkan hatiku........

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When you lose your way, to Allah you should turn.

~~There are tears in my heart~~

Ya Allah, tenangkan & tabahkan hatiku. Dan masukkan aku dalam golongan hamba-hambaMu yang redha dan sabar, In sya Allah, Amin.


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When you lose your way, to Allah you should turn.

~~We miss you...~~

It's been about 2 weeks since we left Sheffield. We miss you a lot abang..... Especially Imtiyaaz, he keeps on searching for you everyday, mainly at night, in the middle of the night to be exact. Even the light is already off, he will wake up, sitting still on the bed, looking around for a minute and sleep back.

It makes my heart cries, a lot. And sometimes it cries me a river. And now he's having a fever, since the last few days. He's missing his abah a lot. Really hope he'll get well very soon and we will get through this, InsyaAllah. It's just a matter of time, yes...a matter of time. I will stay stronger for my lil son, hope for no more tears after this, Amin.

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 When you lose your way, to Allah you should turn.